Aug 24, 2010

It's been a while since I posted...

Oh, yes, it has been a while. Maybe because the chemo thing is over and the surgery is over and now is the time to just work on healing.
I was talking to a co-worker last week about my cancer experiences. I don't see Dave very often on the PET/CT coach so we're not as close as Kristen and I are. Plus, it's just his personality to be a little more reserved. Dave is a really nice guy; very polite and considerate. My cancer is often the elephant in the room and I could tell that he had questions but was too nice to ask them. So, at one point I told him to ask away. Having this blog and sharing so many things on it has made me willing to answer any and all inquiries. Turns out that Dave was not especially interested in the nuts and bolts of cancer - side effects, treatment plans, etc. - but in how I coped, emotionally. Boy, when the guy opens up, he's got some real probing questions! I liked it. He wanted to know how I lived with having cancer. What I thought about the future. Whether I thought about dying or being really debilitated. These are questions I've certainly grappled with but to put it into words was sort of like honing my whole philosophy about cancer. It was a good exercise for me and I thank Dave. Here's my basic answer - keep moving forward! And, assume that things will turn out great! Keep doing everything that you can possibly do to fight and be as positive as possible. Think more about all the great things you'll be doing when all the treatment is over not about what you may have lost. Because, ultimately, cancer is not something that anyone wants but it sure has given me a new outlook and I'm thrilled to have an absolute mandate now to do more and be more!