May 18, 2010

A Little Perspective, Please

I found out something about a friend of mine last night that shocked me. Then, it completely awed me because this person revealed to me that she suffered abuse as a child. I won't go into any details but suffice it to say that she went through years of an ongoing nightmare that no child should have to endure. And yet, I never suspected anything like that had happened to her. She is warm and funny and smart and really has made a great life for hereself. She is successful on a number of planes. I am inspired by her example. Something horrible- far more horrible than cancer and for far longer than any cancer treatment- came into her life and she survived and thrives! What a strong woman! How deep her heart is that she is able to give to others! It gives me a new perspective on what I am experiencing with breast cancer.

Overloaded

I gained 6 pounds in one week! Yikes! At this rate I'll be another 12 pounds heavier by the time chemotherapy is over. My darling nurse Diana tells me the weight gain is due to the massive amount of Decadron (steroid) that I am given each week to mitigate the side effects from the chemo. I have seen people gain weight on steroids, lots of weight.  But in my secret heart I know that my getting larger is also due to my attitude. The attitude that says "Hey, I have Cancer! I'll eat whatever I want!" So, it's time now to drop that attitude. Time to rein myself in and eat much, much better. David will like the change. He's been trying to lose a few pounds. Having an eating machine around the house is definitely not helpful for David. Besides, not even the 'comfy for chemo' clothes I bought on the cheap a few months ago still fit!

But, hey, the really important thing isn't my increasing weight. The important thing is that the cancer is no longer in evidence! Those darn tumors are on the run! I will win whether fat or thin!

May 16, 2010

Boring...

Sometimes I go awhile between blog posts. I think about writing something then I talk myself out of it. I tell myself that no one really wants to read my every thought and experience when the truth is that it's a blog, which by it's nature is all about whatever subject and content the writer wants to post. No one has the time or energy to post every minute, boring detail. Certainly not me! So, on with the posts. Hopefully, they are the interesting highlights and lowlights of this whole cancer thing.