I think it's all gonna be OK

Had the biopsy yesterday. It was a lot like I remember from the last one. Except a tad more uncomfortable. It was not because of anything the doc or nurses did or didn't do. The lumps that they were sampling were smaller than the last time and just below the surface of the skin. The bumps are also right on top of my ribs - I've got no more breast tissue! So, I felt a lot of pressure. I felt the doc bearing down to send the core biopsy needle into my chest wall. But, I really didn't feel the needle sick at all because of the local anesthetic. And maybe a little bit because I've still got (and may always have) some numbness.

Oh, heck, I am just getting so tired of having 'things' done! I guess it would just be unreasonable to expect that, after the treatment is all done, that nothing medical will need attention in my life anymore. Especially since I'm getting older, too. I can dream, though, right?

I was, however, encouraged by the things the Radiologist said during the procedure. She couldn't and, smartly, wouldn't say anything definitive because the ultimate answer will be the results from pathology. But, I've worked with radiologists long enough to recognize when they are not concerned for tumor. Statements like "I'm not very impressed with that" and  "Squishy, squishy that's what we like" were music to my ears! So, next week when I go skiing, I will be thinking about my knee position and facing down the hill, not about a cancer recurrence.

I'm off to the Breast Center at Northwest Hospital today for a biopsy. I found two small lumps on my left side about 8 days ago. Two docs, both my Oncologist and Radiation Oncologist have taken a look and are not particularly worried. They think the lumps might be scar tissue because they appear, actually on both sides, near the end of the scars. It would also be incredibly bad luck to have a recurrence of the cancer right now. If it has come back, it is quite virulent. It would have had to survive the five months of chemo and 24 radiation treatments and bilateral mastectomies! Also, the PET/CT scan I had just this past December was clear; it showed no remaining disease.

So, given all that, I'm not especially worried about today. I might have ignored the lumps but now is the time to be vigilent, not to assume that everything's OK. But, the docs want me to go ahead with the biopsy anyway - just to be sure...